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I’ve been less motivated lately idk why but,,well, I think I know why.
Things have been moving slow, but fast at the same time
It’s hard to explain when you’re in weird times like this.
I just feel like I wanna fast forward to happier times;
To the time where people dont have to stand 6 fucking feet apart., there’s no such thing as self quarantine bullshit.
This is hard. Being constantly worried about my loved ones,
Worried about getting a job, getting a good grade,
I wish I had not wasted so much time in my life
Now I feel like I’m being punished. I’m being punished by the universe for being such a dumbass.
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If I could go back to 10 years ago, I would.
I would make better decisions so that I dont have many regrets in my life.
It just sucks to feel small . I know it’s my own fault. I know I can took for happiness in other people.
Well I feel like I’m slowly becoming a happier person. I slowly feel more content. But there are times where my anxiety gets the best of me.
I suddenly feel like I wanna run and fast forward to where I actually feel content and happy with my life.
I worry too much and it’s eating me alive.
I try to cover it with my smile and laugh, but they’re just for a show.
Dear self, I promise I will be better. I promise I will be nicer to you.
